Love letters

Love letters…

Samy,

Have you noticed fireflies sparkle in the dark? You should, they remind me of you, of that spark you sprinkle in my dark. With that signature laughter ringing in my soul more then in my ears. I swim as comfortable as a fish in your waters, my beautiful, kind Picean friend. I ve planted you as an evergreen tree right here in my backyard …you make me happy.

Love

Vasu,

There are so many things to tell you, I d tell them all to you for the rest of my life, every day of my life, one thing at a time. In words, in prayers, in thought. I ve learnt to build a permanent aquarium in my soul for a crab. Who would have thought? With you I reach beautiful depths and spectacular heights. So much of place you have rightfully stolen in my heart. Somehow I see this road stretch endlessly ahead of us…

Love

Nam,

What would I do without you babe!! You are the funny bone in my body, which trembles with laughter every time I need one. The pillow I fall back on in blind faith when I am heavy with sleep. You are so many things I cannot live without. Tell me this. How is it that we cling to each other being creatures of different species? It must be the kind of love that can reach beyond the abyss of differences. I see you hover over me like the lingering light of the sun every day of my life when the night should come, always to come back to me the next day.

Love

Bojo,

Some things are and always are, and cannot be changed like, like the promises made and the future that has been already born from a past that lives in the present. You left footprints, not on sand, but on flesh and blood that still throb with life. Tomorrow I will feel again this warmth of the furnace that still burns for me. My friend, my guardian, walks with me.

Love

Karthick,

Its strange how life throws us in each others path in unexpected intervals ,as if reminding us to take notice of eachother.I did take notice, you resemble a gentle philosopher clown with a pleasant magic trick or two under his sleeves, to make my life a notch more happier. There are horizons that curve down unknown plains…we should take a trip sometime.

Love

Sachin,

Words don’t come that easily at the thought of you. Because words come out of thought, and you are all emotion. And what does one do when flooded with love? We must have been friends many a lifetimes before, because in this one we repeat our selves in this well practiced love story. I think what to pen down next, about you, about us, but how can I bottle up this ocean? I fail miserably; to me you always are….. You stand as my lighthouse, calling me safely to shore, don’t let me go, or my ship is lost…

Love

Bro,

Resurrect all that is dead. Come Back to me. Come back to HIM.

Love

Mamma,

Life is all that it is, only because you flow in my body, as my life blood.

Love

Dear soulmate,

Find me…………………

Love.

Irrevocability revoked….

Tonight a friend walked into out of my life…or should I say walked into my life? Yeah walked into my life would be perfect…walked into my soul, taught me a lesson or two about what this life does to you…complexly magical things. Life makes you stop and look back sometimes. Looking back is good. It helps you move on sometimes.

We met 6 years ago, he was my senior in colledge.just one of those several people I got introduced to over the weeks..No big deal. This tall, lanky guy with his head in the clouds or so I thought. A couple of conversations, small talk, distant nods and smiles was all that passed between us for a couple of years. Later in under grad, he was still just another obscure, unnoticed part of my life with a face that gave away nothing.

A few long conversations over lunch and there wasn’t much of an impression happening on either side. Months and years went by, in silence, in scanty acknowledgment, in chanced meetings. Then a year back, the cosmic energies seemed to conspire in our favour.. We reconnected, in a strange way.Hours of conversations only disagreeing with each other on just about everything, arguing which one of us was right, trying to convince each other about what we believed was gospel truth. That was what our friendship was all about. All this with a little bit of the cosmic magic thrown in that dint let us bite off each others head.
We shared a lot of respect for each other though, how I don’t know since we were fundamentally very different people.Dont know till now, how a hard core rationalist with his calculated nerves got along with chronic romantic like me.
Tonight over dinner, probably our last dinner for a very very long time, everything looked way too different. There were things about him I d gotten to know very recently, a slice of romance stuck away somewhere underneath all that seriousness, bursts of humor hidden away and a side of sensitivity that I dint have a clue existed.
He was going away to Australia for good. We promised to stay in touch across continents.yeah the distance loomed darkly at the back of our minds. But to hell with that. We all know that one can be a millions miles away in spite of standing next to you and vice versa. Distances are made and implemented in our heads.
And if not everything else, I believe he shares this one thing about distances not mattering. The home is where the heart is.
I don’t like change, the change that wipes out traces of affections, and a change that transforms friends into strangers. That change is not for me. It gladdens me to realize, that iv always fought to be this way,Samena and I share this amazing friendship though she s been away at France these 6 months.Teju and I have never failed to exchange mails though she s in uk.It gives me strength to know I can do the same again. Hold onto something that’s worth holding onto.
Learnt a ton from tonight. Time unfolds magical layers from people. That you should do some waiting before you conclude on someone. That you should do your best to build on something you ve started. Before its too late and you feel like you might have let some precious time slip into irrevocability.
For me ….this is an irrevocability that I will revoke as long as I can.
For you Rajath….
I wish I had watered this seed
We hid underground years ago.
It lay there
In the sun.in the heat, in the dryness.
Waiting for pregnant clouds
That never came
Then this wisp of wind,
Happened to slip a patch of cloud
Across this barren ground.
Thought we switched a button somewhere.
A sprinkle of rain, now n then.
Days of many suns,n destiny calls.
You left, by walking into my life.
With the seed sprouting its first leaf.