Irrevocability revoked….

Tonight a friend walked into out of my life…or should I say walked into my life? Yeah walked into my life would be perfect…walked into my soul, taught me a lesson or two about what this life does to you…complexly magical things. Life makes you stop and look back sometimes. Looking back is good. It helps you move on sometimes.

We met 6 years ago, he was my senior in colledge.just one of those several people I got introduced to over the weeks..No big deal. This tall, lanky guy with his head in the clouds or so I thought. A couple of conversations, small talk, distant nods and smiles was all that passed between us for a couple of years. Later in under grad, he was still just another obscure, unnoticed part of my life with a face that gave away nothing.

A few long conversations over lunch and there wasn’t much of an impression happening on either side. Months and years went by, in silence, in scanty acknowledgment, in chanced meetings. Then a year back, the cosmic energies seemed to conspire in our favour.. We reconnected, in a strange way.Hours of conversations only disagreeing with each other on just about everything, arguing which one of us was right, trying to convince each other about what we believed was gospel truth. That was what our friendship was all about. All this with a little bit of the cosmic magic thrown in that dint let us bite off each others head.
We shared a lot of respect for each other though, how I don’t know since we were fundamentally very different people.Dont know till now, how a hard core rationalist with his calculated nerves got along with chronic romantic like me.
Tonight over dinner, probably our last dinner for a very very long time, everything looked way too different. There were things about him I d gotten to know very recently, a slice of romance stuck away somewhere underneath all that seriousness, bursts of humor hidden away and a side of sensitivity that I dint have a clue existed.
He was going away to Australia for good. We promised to stay in touch across continents.yeah the distance loomed darkly at the back of our minds. But to hell with that. We all know that one can be a millions miles away in spite of standing next to you and vice versa. Distances are made and implemented in our heads.
And if not everything else, I believe he shares this one thing about distances not mattering. The home is where the heart is.
I don’t like change, the change that wipes out traces of affections, and a change that transforms friends into strangers. That change is not for me. It gladdens me to realize, that iv always fought to be this way,Samena and I share this amazing friendship though she s been away at France these 6 months.Teju and I have never failed to exchange mails though she s in uk.It gives me strength to know I can do the same again. Hold onto something that’s worth holding onto.
Learnt a ton from tonight. Time unfolds magical layers from people. That you should do some waiting before you conclude on someone. That you should do your best to build on something you ve started. Before its too late and you feel like you might have let some precious time slip into irrevocability.
For me ….this is an irrevocability that I will revoke as long as I can.
For you Rajath….
I wish I had watered this seed
We hid underground years ago.
It lay there
In the sun.in the heat, in the dryness.
Waiting for pregnant clouds
That never came
Then this wisp of wind,
Happened to slip a patch of cloud
Across this barren ground.
Thought we switched a button somewhere.
A sprinkle of rain, now n then.
Days of many suns,n destiny calls.
You left, by walking into my life.
With the seed sprouting its first leaf.